Voy a morir esta noche

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Voy a morir esta noche. Voy a morir mi tristeza, mi soledad, mi ansiedad y mi cordura. No puedo volver a nacer, pero por fortuna puedo morir para darle estos ojos míos a esa persona, ese ser, de loca sonrisa. Así que voy a morir, para un nuevo mundo, y darle a ese ser los años que me quedan; que le quedan a este cuerpo para haga son su intempestiva sonrisa los bailes que desea. 

Gusto conocerles, y adiós. 

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